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Playing Bioshock in a skirt.

It was really interesting reading the replies to yesterday's entry. I wasn't asking or looking for reassurance (as you can tell from the post, I'm more than happy with my life's choices), but it's nice to know there are others out there with the same opinion. It's so easy to brand people these days, everyone's desperate for a label to give themselves identity.

I'm no different, really. I love being a nerd, or a geek, or whatever the terminology is these days (I tend to reserve 'geek' to science types, while nerds are people who obsess over television shows and video games.) I suppose the main tag I give myself these days is that of 'gamer', and it's one I'm undoubtedly proud of. As I posted recently, games have shaped my life. But the trouble with labels (and 'gamer' and 'nerd' are two of the top contenders) is that they bring imagery I don't particularly want to associate myself with.

These days, being a nerd, especially a female nerd online, seems to mean I'm meant to shun feminine things, throw out my dresses, stop wearing makeup and collect a wardrobe consisting entirely of black t-shirts and jeans. I know girl nerds who act as though they're above 'normal' girls for having no interest in those things. Because basic hygiene and vague fashion sense is somehow limited to the 'mundanes' who don't live their lives online.

I'm a girl who plays video games, draws silly fanart, watches cartoons and writes fanfic. I'm a complete and utter nerd. I love science fiction, I attend conventions, I listen to chip tunes and read comic books.

Here's the secret; I also watch X Factor, Eastenders and Jeremy Kyle (a total guilty pleasure of mine.) I can spend hundreds of pounds in Forbidden Planet and on Think Geek, sure, but I can also spend a fortune in Boots buying makeup or perfume, or in highstreet stores buying awesome clothes. For all the time I watch Yogscast on YouTube doing their latest Minecraft playthrough, I watch makeup tutorials and read fashion blogs. I read Glamour and GamesTM. I take my time getting ready before I leave the house. I lather, rinse and repeat.

And yet I go to conventions and associate with girls who don't do those things, and what's more, they boast about it, act indignant about doing 'normal' things, as though I'm somehow letting nerddom down for not becoming the archetypical stereotype. If I walk into a game store in a pretty dress, I'm instantly a girlfriend buying for my guy.

I just think it's a shame really. And I wish I knew more girls like me, who were into the comics and the video games and cosplay and conventions and fannish junk, who also loved outright being a girl. I don't understand why it has to be all or nothing, and I wish I knew more people who did walk that middle line. I know some folks on LJ and Facebook who are the same, so they do exist. They just seem to be a minority within a minority, one of those girls who loves to style her hair, put on some pretty makeup, and play Bioshock in a skirt.

Anyway, here's two pieces I've completed recently. I am, as always, open for commissions.

http://www.astoundance.com/reaperworks/art/melissasketch.png http://www.astoundance.com/reaperworks/art/nichicoloursketch.png

I need to make some money to cover MCM Expo expenses, so hopefully the commissions will keep coming in. I received my comic industry pass for MCM Expo yesterday, which is pretty exciting! I absolutely can't wait, even though I'm really behind at the moment and don't have nearly enough art and merchandise to sell. This next month will be spent flailing and panicking.





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Apr. 18th, 2011 09:40 pm (UTC)
I've never liked labels really, though I do refer to myself as either a nerd or a geek.

I am far more girly these days than I was. I remember when I used to where my plaid shirt and jeans outside, while now I tend to sleep in that (the shirt not the jeans) I feel I have become more feminine recently. I used to hate skirts and now I don't feel I have enough. I'm taking better care of my skin, though I still don't wear make up. I want to wear more colour (too much brown and grey in my wardrobe)

Though personally I've never really had an image of what a girl gamer looks like. I mean, you and Mel were always my examples and you've both got very different looks (especially now)

Apr. 18th, 2011 09:42 pm (UTC)
Hahah, well, I know both types. Though I've never experienced girls who frown upon ladies who act...lady-ish and nerdy. I feel that's almost the hipster mentality of I'm cooler than you because I'm MORE HARDCORE.

Anyway, there's definitely nothing wrong with doing both!
Apr. 18th, 2011 11:01 pm (UTC)
I'm cooler than you because I'm MORE HARDCORE.

Totally this. It's totally that, and it's super lame. I know too many people like that, sadly :(
Apr. 18th, 2011 09:42 pm (UTC)
I'm not much of a gamer. Like, I would LOVE to get my hands on an N64 and nerd out with Zelda and Super Mario, and I kind of want to find some more games for my old gameboys, and I freakin' miss World of Warcraft (but have better things to spend my money on nowadays), but other than that I'm quite content to just sit back watch my friends play, rather than sit with the controller myself. (I'm actually watching Hank Green play Portal on youtube right now, because I'm cool like that)

But I'm very much a nerd girl too, which you know. Doctor Who, Firefly, The Lord of the Rings, CATS, cosplaying, conventions... yeah. I'm right there with you.

I'm not an uber girly girl, but I'm somewhat girly, amn't I? I wear eye makeup, I wear jewelry, I polish my nails.

And I'm both a geek and a nerd. Big deal :D
Apr. 18th, 2011 09:44 pm (UTC)

I'm kind of freaking out because if I'm really unlucky there will be an exam on the 27th in which case I'll have to hope I can change my plane ticket, or throw it out the window ;_;

No exam that day, please, dear universe!
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Apr. 18th, 2011 11:00 pm (UTC)
Oh yeah, I totally dig the tomboy thing, I used to be a COMPLETE tomboy when I was younger and lived in jeans and check shirts, haha. It's just yeah, that complete holier-than-thou attitude, like the world owes them a living because they're GIRLS ON THE INTERNET or something, sheesh.
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