Soo... was this one of you?
I replied honestly and a bit emo-ly. Giving up

Fuck popularity, it was never about that. It was about creating something that people enjoyed - to the point that they now miss it. For a year I had that power, as small and insiginificant as it was. It made hundreds of people smile. I don't have that anymore. I can't do that anymore.
I suck.
I'll update
- Current Mood:
contemplative
Comments
You're not letting us down, or at least I don't feel that way. You don't have any obligation to update or not. As nice as it would be, it's not something you can or should be guilted or bullied into. I'm sorry if I made you feel bad, it truly was not my intention. If I had an ulterior motive it would have been to point new people over so they could enjoy it, too. (Because you made something special, and everyone should see it.) Definitely NOT to give you grief.
Again, I'm sorry if I made you feel bad or guilty, or if my bumbling attempt to make it better has somehow made it worse. I should really stick to trolling F!S, it's what I'm good at.
I'm emo because I LOVED the damned comic. As much as I often whined about it at time. I'm sad because I didn't appreciate it back when I had it. I didn't appreciate how special it was to have something so many people loved. I LOVED having the watchers and the commenters, but it's only now when I'm back to doing nothing that I realise how... damned ...amazing it felt to have that, back when I did.
I wouldn't mind had I bounced into something else, had I thrown myself into
And then I see stuff like that secret and it's like, THAT'S why I should make the effort. THAT'S why it's worth pushing yourself. Because as much as you whine and go "hur I've no motivation," it's WORTH it so much when you hear people - 8 months later - still enjoy and miss what you did. It's worth pushing through that shit and angst and lack of muse because... look what happens? We still get hundreds of hits on the comics. People still care. It's insane.
I didn't mean to make YOU feel bad about posting it (OR call you out on it!) Despite the emo (I'm prone to it lately), it's stuff like this I need. Not egowanking, but that... reminder that it's worth it. That I need to get over this godforsaken block and create again. I feel guilty because I let myself down more than anyone, not because - heaven forbid - somebody enjoyed something I drew so much that they felt the need to share it.
tl;dr, Don't you dare feel bad. I need the kick up the butt. I need to be reminded that what I create MATTERS to people. I need to work on
(And you've no idea how much I want to just plain start
Edited at 2009-09-01 09:37 pm (UTC)
No worries on calling me out. Like I said, I mainly just troll F!S. Sometimes I put up something I actually think, but it's rarely actually a secret, just something I would like to see the response to or think needs to be said.